bella_muerte919 ([info]bella_muerte919) wrote,
@ 2005-07-19 13:36:00
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Current mood: busy
Current music:The Partridge Family - I Woke Up In Love This Morning

*sigh* *sigh* *sigh*
Wow. I've been quite busy lately.

Firstly I joined the comm [info]dark_manor so I've been doing a lot of stuff for my journal for that ([info]adamlazzara___ look how pretty!).

Then I went to a Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince release party on Friday night with Heather, Steven, Lexa, and Jessy. It was actually a lot of fun. I wish I could have gotten the book that night (*kicks mother*) instead of having to wait until Sunday morning *grr*. But it was still a lot of fun. Heather ran off to be with her geeks pretty fast so Steven and I sat by the magazines and listened to my iPod for a while. It was fun because we got to beg Heather for some money so we could buy dinner for us. Sushi = way too expensive. So we went to the pizza place and listened to the guys there bad mouth the HP geeks which was very amusing.

When we got back I was able to talk to this really cool girl Caren (or Karen I don't remember >_>;; Sorry) who is into slash *cheer*. She showed me some really good slash mangas that I'm so buying. Gravitation and Fake I believe they were called. The ones in the plastic looked tasty. Hah then Steven befriends this 22 year old woman and a 35 year old woman who talk to us until midnight. Alexa and I had to go home book-less. Poor us.

The next day I went to my dad's and went to some cheap party for my half brother and half sister. The reason it was cheap was a) they combined Matthew and Madison's birthday's together despite the 25-ish day difference between the birthdays. b) they only had one, very boy-ish, cake c) they had it at the church with no food. d) they went to iicky Ihop afterwards. Ew. But my uncle was there so I stayed sane by talking to him and listening to my sexy iPod. My uncle actually likes The Dresden Dolls *gasp*, which makes me immensly happy. I'm burning that CD for him and he's burning a Pink Floyd CD for me. I give him new CDs he gives me the old ones. Yea! He also said he'd be happy to take me to any concerts I might want to go too as long as he likes the music. I know that he's just trying to get points with me after being an ass all through my childhood but I'm not complaining. This solves my problem of my dad being too cheap to take me to shows, my mom hating all music I like, and my stepdad working too much to stay out any later than 10:30. I'm gonna try for maybe something Used/Glassjaw.

The only other good thing that came from the party was the lovely emo waiter that served us at Ihop. Ironically we were the first table he's ever served. I felt very bad for him because going out with my stepmom and any member of her family causes lots of problems. So Caren rushed the poor kid (because she had to go to her stupid pet sitting job. *grr*), her aunt was the pickiest thing in the world and wasted so much time instructing him how much to cook her bacon and how she wanted her tea *stab*, and of course Jared, Matthew, and Madison made lots of messes. Poor tasty emo boy *lick* < sorry Andrea ^_^ >.

But the most interesting thing was what happened that night. My dad and my a-house-should-fall-on-you-evil stepmom got into a fight. XD!!! It may seem kind of sick that I love having them fight so much but you don't know my stepmom. God I hate that woman so much. The fight was purely her fault by the way. It seriously was, my venomous hatred for her being pushed aside. My step brother Jared fell off his little kid's skatebored and got really scrapped up, see. There was a cut behind his ear that was bleeding a lot. So when he came in crying, my stepgrandma took care of him while my dad put Madison to bed. When he came down he cleaned Jared up and he was fine. He started playing cards with my stepaunt and stepgrandma. All was well. So dad and I started to watch Ray together, a movie he's been dying to watch since it came out in theaters. My dad had a man crush on Ray Charles shhh. We didn't get three minutes into the movie when Caren and Justin come home. Caren doesn't like her mom and aunt very much so when she say they where still at her house playing cards with Jared she started yelling. The yelling pissed off my dad because we couldn't here the movie at all and also because it could wake up the two sleeping babies in the house. The yelling also upset Jared (who is way too sensitive for an 8 year old by the way) and he starts crying and whining about his ear. So Caren, being the genius that she is, assumes that Jared has been crying in pain the entire time she's been gone and my father has been ignoring him to watch a movie with his "fucking daughter". She goes in and starts yelling at my dad and Justin is dumb so he gets smart with my dad and gets in trouble. And Caren insults me for no reason and is screaming and cursing at my dad. But my dad grew some balls about time and yells back at her and tells her to shut up so he can explain. Caren having the self control of a saint, throws a remote at my dad which ends up hitting me in the shoulder. And to be honest it did hurt quite a lot. So they get into a big fight and my dad throws a remote at the wall. Blah blah blah "always spending time with your stupid daughter, Chris" "stop bringing her into this" blah blah blah "don't get involved Justin" "well he's my brother too" *scream curse scream* Justin tells his grandma to shut up and gets smacked and sent to his room. Caren slams some doors. Jared cries his eyes out. And I spend the rest of the night watching Law and Order: SVU in my basement. Yay!

*sigh* Next day they didn't talk about the fight again. I got my Harry Potter book when I went to my house before church, which we ran late for and ended up missing. Double yay! I read my book the entire time I was there, and then read it in the car on the way back to my dad's, read it all through lunch and after and then in the car ride to Quick Check to bring snacks to the movie theater, then in the car to the movie theater. Sadly I had to bid my book adieu when we got there due to the rain. Justin snuck our snacks in and we got our tickets for...Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, triple yay!!! When we got inside a funny thing happened. The reason I was going with Mr. ADD himself was becase all my friends were busy. Efe in London, Viki in Bulgaria, Amira in Egypt, Kristine unreachable, Alexa busy or so I thought, and Heather seeing the movie with her boyfriend earlier that day. But when we got there I saw Heather and her iicky boyfriend there with Alexa. Turns out Alexa was a last minute addition which meant it was safe to be around Heather and Eric because Heather would ignore Eric if there was another human being around. So I got to sit with them during the movie which made it soooooo much more fun. Alexa is just a ball of fun I swear to God. She could make.....killing puppies and kittens fun. I love that girl. So the three of us had a great time ignoring iicky Eric and gabbing about Harry Potter, the genius of Tim Burton, and how awesome Johhny D. is when he plays almost-a-girl characters. The movie kicked all kinds off ass by the way. I've gotten to see lots of good movies lately. Batman Begins....War of the Worlds...saw Million Dollar Baby on DVD *bawls*....and now I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Quadruple yay! I mean there were some parts where Gene Wilder's version was slightly better but having flaming puppets and having a flaming hilarious Willy Wonka made up for it. I want to buy the soundtrack for that movie and see it again sometime soon.

After the movie Justin ditched me *watch me feign sadness* and Lexa, Heather, and me ditched Eric *hah!!*. We hung out in the bathroom and talked about what we knew about Harry Potter so far. Alexa had finished it already (lucky), I was only up to Slughorn's first lesson, and Heather was very surprisngly not done. She was only a chapter or two ahead of me. I don't know if she's done now yet or not, but I have to find out. It's very out of character for her not to be reading the damn thing for the fifth time by now. But she has been really busy with her stupid camp stuff so...

So for the rest of Sunday afternoon and night I devoted all my time to reading the rest of that book. My mom made me watch Sureal Life with her so that wasted some time but I read during the commercials. I was halfway finished by the time I went to bed. The next day I ignored my sister completely and had the book finished by five to 12. ;___; I'm not going to give any spoilers but I cried so very much. If anyone reading this has read the book please shoot me an IM, I need to know people's thoughts because I'm very very confused and very unsatisfied with the ending. I don't like when I don't know for sure why certain things happened.

With the book finished I could finally go on the computer yesterday. Yay Andrea!! So bare with me for right now. I'm about four days behind on all my lj stuff and only just finished clearing out my deviantArt updates. I still have to update my RP journal, email some friends ASAP, fix some shit on my iPod, and clear out my picture and favorites folders.

>__< But right now good people, I'm taking a shower.

Adios

RIP "_____________"




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[info]ltsk
2005-07-22 04:19 am UTC (link)
What had you confused at the close of the book?

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[info]bella_muerte919
2005-07-22 01:22 pm UTC (link)
SPOILER!

Pfft, as if anyone reads my journal anyway.

Well I'm confused because I don't know if Snape is just evil and completely betrayed Dumbledore. Or if perhaps there was more to that. I mean...Dumbledore pleaded which is totally not in his character. And it doesn't add up that Dumbledore would have trusted Snape that easily when Snape obviously betrayed him without a second thought. My friends are just ready to kill Snape but I can't help thinking there's more to it

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SPOILERY SPOILERNESS! OH NOES!
[info]ltsk
2005-07-22 05:28 pm UTC (link)
::points at subject:: You've been warned, slow readers!

It's hard to say precisely, but I think a careful reading would sugggest that Snape killed Dumbledore because he was still loyal to him.

Okay, so that's still confusing. But I think that Dumbledore was dying anyway. (He was slowly fading as he spoke with Draco--which was a wonderful scene--I loved Dumbledore so very, very much for the way he handled that--and by the time Snape faced Dumbledore, the man was prone and barely able to speak. He was nearly gone, I think.) The potion was killing him, slowly. He knew about the Oath because Snape told him. Snape didn't want to swear that third part of the Oath (remember, he hesitated), but once he did, he had to kill Dumbledore, because there was no way Dumbledore would let Draco commit that great an evil, because he loves all of his students, even the ferrety ones. Also, Snape couldn't let Draco kill Dumbledore because he swore an Unbreakable Oath to protect Draco. Protecting Draco would mean keeping him from committing that evil of killing Dumbledore.

Dumbledore knew about the Oath and what it meant for Snape, knew he was dying and, as someone pointed out on their LJ (where I can't remember at the moment), both Dumbledore and Snape are highly accomplished Occlumens. There was that moment when they stared at each other. There was, in all likelihood, communication between the two of them at that point. Dumbledore was letting Snape know what was happening, letting him know he had to kill him. The pleading wasn't for his life, but for Snape to do what he'd asked him to do. The hatred and loathing would not be aimed at Dumbledore, but at either himself or at the situation or at the people egging him on or all three.

I also suspect the AK curse wasn't fully effective, as I don't think Snape had his heart in it, and, as it was pointed out to us at the end of book five, you need to want to kill in order for it to work. However, even if it doesn't actually kill the intended victim, it can still knock them off their feet and back a ways (remember when Harry AKed Bellatrix?). It didn't kill Dumbledore, but it knocked him off the tower. The fall and the potion did the rest.

The freak-out against being called a coward was harsh even for Snape dealing with the hated Potter. If, as that LJ essay wrote, Snape had just made this great sacrifice of AKing Dumbledore, the only man, the only person who forgave and believed Snape, in order to follow Dumbledore's request. It was probably the hardest thing Snape ever had to do.

I'm not one of those big Snape fans. I think he's a terrific asshole most of the time. He's needlessly mean to Neville and others, makes snap judgements about Harry just because of who his dad was and continues to see him through the filter of some ridiculous idea that Harry is James Potter part deux. He's a poopie-head. But, he's an interesting, complex poopie-head. One of the best aspects of the series is the more complex view of the adult characters, especially Snape, which we get through the Harry-POV-centric narration as Harry grows up. Harry's own blinding prejudice against Snape (which is somewhat justified) keeps him from fully understanding the things he's seeing. At some level, I'm sure, he comprehends, but his emotions don't let him understand. ... Oh, I so love this series!

Wow. This is really freaking long. Sorry. It's not like I know any of this. It's just a couple of ideas. I'm not inclined to hate Snape, nor am I inclined to declare my ever-lasting lurv for him. He's just interesting. If I believed he was truly guilty of betraying Dumbledore, I'd want his liver removed with a spork which had been dipped in lye...for starters. But I think the evidence is otherwise, in spite of what Harry thought he saw. Harry saw more than he realized.

... Rowling's such a freaking genius.

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Re: SPOILERY SPOILERNESS! OH NOES!
[info]bella_muerte919
2005-07-31 09:49 pm UTC (link)
Whoa sorry I took so long to get back to you. I've been neglecting poor lj lately *pats it*

But you seem to share the opinion of a lot of the people in HP messageboards. I felt the same about the Occlumecy thang. I'm trying to point this out to my friend whose desperate to rip out and barbeque Snape's heart in acid.

I agree with you on a majority of this but just the fact that Im not positive if it's true or not irks me. I want to know what really happened. But just a note. Harry never AK-ed Bellatrix. He did the Crucious(sp???) one. I love you for posting such a long thing though. It was lovely ^_^

You are wonderful madame. And I love this series dearly as well XD

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Re: SPOILERY SPOILERNESS! OH NOES!
[info]ltsk
2005-08-01 12:11 am UTC (link)
::sits and thinks::

::sits and thinks::

::sits and thinks::

...this is what I get for not rereading the series ahead of time. Moron. ::headdesk::

::ponders while rubbing bruised forehead::

Still, I think the same applies to all of the Unforgivable Curses, or at least Crucio and Avada Kedavra (sp?). You need to have heart-felt intent in order for it to work properly. In order to torture someone, you really have to have it in you to do so. Same goes for killing them. The Unforgivables are each a step along a path to a split or broken soul. You have to have a damaged soul to work that magic, and be willing to damage it further. Harry didn't have it in him to torture another human being. Snape didn't have it in him to kill Dumbledore (though he'd probably happily torture someone). (I'm kind of working from what Dumbledore told Harry during their lessons here, as well as from whatever it was Harry did to Bellatrix and she shouted back at him.)

Maybe. I don't know. Maybe Snape does have it in him. Maybe he's as evil as it appears on the surface. Somehow, though, I doubt that. Consider how complex she's made Draco. I don't think she's going to make Snape out-and-out evil, as that just wouldn't be interesting for her or her readers.

I hate waiting for this damned book. WRITE IT NOW, ROWLING! I WANT BOOK SEVEN YESTERDAY!

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[info]godieinahole3
2005-07-25 12:49 am UTC (link)
So, when did you get your iPod? is it green?

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[info]bella_muerte919
2005-07-25 02:09 pm UTC (link)
Hah. I got it awhile ago. It's cute and green. Miss you Kristine. We have to see CatCF together. I've seen it and I'm sure you have but we can see it again ^_^

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